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It's morning and the world is waking up. I'd better get my ass out of here and catch some of those fares, the folks who spent too much time in the bathroom mirror or at the breakfast table and know they'll be late if they try to take the train. I usually make a decent enough wage from 7 to 9 and I'll definitely need it today, after fucking off in an alley for over an hour. What the hell was I thinking? It might not have been much, but I could have gotten at least one fare in already and I probably would have picked up another one before the first let the door slam shut.
I tilt my head to look at the dash and see exactly how late it was, but I can tell by the sound of the store on the corner rolling up the security gate, the clink clink clink as the gate turned in on itself, that it was close to 8:00 a.m. That's when the restaurant opened to let the waitstaff in.
Resourceful.
Mama always said I was resourceful. I could have been a fucking Boy Scout.
There'll be a delivery soon and I'm blocking the back door, I reach for the steering wheel with one hand instinctively, mashing my foot on the brake and extending my finger toward the button for the ignition at the same time. But nothing happens. I reach for the ignition again, lamenting about how my legs must've cramped up because I sit behind the wheel of this shitty cab too long…how big my gut is getting. I need to get out and get some air, take a fucking walk sometimes. Karen likes to take walks. We used to do that all the time when we started out, taking the train just to be out together, get off at a random stop and walk city blocks we had never been on before. We would get coffee from one of the shops we saw along the way, would window shop, would daydream. I could climb the stairs to her fourth-floor apartment without breaking a sweat then and now I can't even reach over to turn on the goddamned car. I reached for the ignition button again with effort, tried to engage my abs, wondering if I had ever really felt my abs move in the first place, all the while repeating the familiar mantra, I'll start working out again. I'll start working out again…I mean it this time.
But nothing.